Monday, April 26
firstly... i would like to say thousands and millions of sorry... sorry to 2/3 people... especially jun xian,shawal,gabriel,adina,yijun... and a lot more... basically to 2/3... sorry for the trouble that i had created this afternoon...shouldn't had cried... for recap...
this afternoon... we had our 2.4km test... the most difficult test for me... i ended up running alone and came in last [of 2/3] which is not surprising at all to me... so when i came in... i didn't take note if mr ling took down my timing... just ran past... [by the way... he was talking to whoever when i ran past] when yeeyew told him that i had finished the run... he sort of scolded me for not raising up my hand and telling him that i had finished... so i said nothing and he gave me my position number 49... at that moment... i was at the state of going to cry as i feared that i'm going to fail...
so we went to assemble and we gave him our position number and register number... when it was my turn... i gave him mine... and he realised that he couldn't find position number 48... so he concluded that i'm position number 48 and he did took down my timing when i ran past... so... ya... then he read out the timing... my timing was 17.14... though it's very bad... but i passed... so i was a bit too agaitated i guess that i actually broke down and cried... and everyone just started to crowd around me... trying to console me... but i really was alright...i guess i was too "ji dong" that i broke down and cried... people just started to come up to me... asking me what happened... why i cried... and wanted to scold mr ling... blah blah blah... so i had to explained everything to them and that the timing was fine with me... but some just didn't trust the timing... so they went to approached to mr ling... but i said that everything was fine and that i didn't want to argue over the timing problem and i apologised to him...
after i had cooled down... i went up to whoever consoled me and apologised... then jun xian and shawal began to blame themselves and i blamed myself...[lame ar ?] but it was my fault i guess...
up till now... i still hadn't figure out why i had cired... probably because i was too relief that i had passed and cried ? or maybe because i came in last and the whole run was a lonely run ? i really dun know... the whole run was filled with loneliness and fear... fearing that u might failed as u already cannot see anyone...u know ? that feeling... maybe some understand maybe some may not... lasy year's 2.4 wasn't that good either... well... i guessed i'm being cursed by this 2.4 test ? haha...
tuition was fun today either... or it hasn't been fun at all all the while ? i didn't utter a word in class again... so boring... hai... let's hope that tomorrow will be a better day ? and my day would be much better seeing the sun rising again ? i hope so...
examinations are coming... and i hadn't been really revising... i didn't know where to start... there's just so much things to do... art... d n t... all had to be handed up by this wednesday... sigh... hopefully i will had the energy to keep myself working until the end of examinations period ? i hope so... ya... so that's all ? and by the way... i brought a newbra yesterday with a cat picture on it... i think i won't wear it ? coz i 'm afraid that the cat might drop off... haha... so... i stopped here... signing off...
firstly... i would like to say thousands and millions of sorry... sorry to 2/3 people... especially jun xian,shawal,gabriel,adina,yijun... and a lot more... basically to 2/3... sorry for the trouble that i had created this afternoon...shouldn't had cried... for recap...
this afternoon... we had our 2.4km test... the most difficult test for me... i ended up running alone and came in last [of 2/3] which is not surprising at all to me... so when i came in... i didn't take note if mr ling took down my timing... just ran past... [by the way... he was talking to whoever when i ran past] when yeeyew told him that i had finished the run... he sort of scolded me for not raising up my hand and telling him that i had finished... so i said nothing and he gave me my position number 49... at that moment... i was at the state of going to cry as i feared that i'm going to fail...
so we went to assemble and we gave him our position number and register number... when it was my turn... i gave him mine... and he realised that he couldn't find position number 48... so he concluded that i'm position number 48 and he did took down my timing when i ran past... so... ya... then he read out the timing... my timing was 17.14... though it's very bad... but i passed... so i was a bit too agaitated i guess that i actually broke down and cried... and everyone just started to crowd around me... trying to console me... but i really was alright...i guess i was too "ji dong" that i broke down and cried... people just started to come up to me... asking me what happened... why i cried... and wanted to scold mr ling... blah blah blah... so i had to explained everything to them and that the timing was fine with me... but some just didn't trust the timing... so they went to approached to mr ling... but i said that everything was fine and that i didn't want to argue over the timing problem and i apologised to him...
after i had cooled down... i went up to whoever consoled me and apologised... then jun xian and shawal began to blame themselves and i blamed myself...[lame ar ?] but it was my fault i guess...
up till now... i still hadn't figure out why i had cired... probably because i was too relief that i had passed and cried ? or maybe because i came in last and the whole run was a lonely run ? i really dun know... the whole run was filled with loneliness and fear... fearing that u might failed as u already cannot see anyone...u know ? that feeling... maybe some understand maybe some may not... lasy year's 2.4 wasn't that good either... well... i guessed i'm being cursed by this 2.4 test ? haha...
tuition was fun today either... or it hasn't been fun at all all the while ? i didn't utter a word in class again... so boring... hai... let's hope that tomorrow will be a better day ? and my day would be much better seeing the sun rising again ? i hope so...
examinations are coming... and i hadn't been really revising... i didn't know where to start... there's just so much things to do... art... d n t... all had to be handed up by this wednesday... sigh... hopefully i will had the energy to keep myself working until the end of examinations period ? i hope so... ya... so that's all ? and by the way... i brought a new
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|4/26/2004 09:16:00 PM|
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